1st Sunday of February

I am embarking on a new hobby this week... digital scrapbooking.

Like I have any time to do this. With studying for the NET test. Yes, that is the big news in my house. I am heading back to school. I am not going for nursing, no not for me. Instead, I am going for medical assisting. However, this test has me all stressed out. I haven't been in school for 15 years at least and this 37 year old mama is just that a mom. All this basic math and this reading comprehension. It is like so vague to me. I just can't remember and it just isn't clicking. But I will study and do it over and over every day and I will get it. If this was meant to be it will happen..I do believe it will happen.

I haven't been anything else except for a mother and wife of course for the last 13 years. This will seem rather strange to me as I start out on a new journey. I am really really awesome at that job. But what about this new one. It is very scaring to start out something new. Can I do it will I like it???? So many questions and they won't be answered for awhile.

So, this story of mine is just the beginning. I will keep you posted as the days go on and the weeks pass by. I will be also working on my photography. I have been neglected it way to long and need to start working on that again. That is my favorite hobby. I don't want her to think I have forgotten about her. My kids are growing fast and I want to record it all.

So close your eyes and think about today. About what it will bring and about all the laughter and joy that come with it. About all the unknown blessings coming your way. Lets enjoy today and look for the future.

A wonderful day filled with so much joy to you today..

Tracy

time to catch up

It has been 2 years since I have written on my blog site. I can't believe it.. where has the time gone and so much has happened.

Stay tuned as I turn my life around and start writing again. Not only was it good therapy but it was a good way for me to stay connect to myself.

Tracy

PMS ~ UGH

Sometimes I walk around and think about the strangest things.. Things that don't even make sense to me or where did they come from .

I am having a bad case of PMS today ~ why does this happen to me? I try to love myself each and everyday but then on these few occasional days throughout the month I turn into a monster. A monster with no self control ~ a monster who stomach is in a HUGE knot ~ who hates every male species around her ~ who strives for some time alone ~ who so desperately needs someone to understand.

That is where my girlfriends come in.. Boy I love my sisters ~ they have enlightened my life more than they know.. especially on days like this when I feel all alone.. The male specie doesn't understand what I am going through and really doesn't understand how it can become so out of control.

Listen DUDE ~ let me tell you a little story ~ If Adam didn't tell Eve to eat that apple God wouldn't be punishing the woman... so as far as I am concerned this is ALL YOUR FAULT. OK I feel a little better.

We wonder how well we will turn out when this is over ~ this PMS thing ~ .. shouldn't I be able to handle it better ~ I have been doing this for 23 years ~ 23 years of menstruating and PMSing.. UGH ...

Will men every understand that we are allowed to have a few days to not be ourselves? That we will not always be the "happy" fun person that you fell in love with.. That I need a few days a month to reorganize myself, emotions, thoughts and anger.. to have a little time to myself..

If I found a Jeannie in a bottle do you know what I would wish for ????? That men could have PMS ~ the kind of PMS that drives us all crazy ~ the moody, angry, selfish, chocolate craving, beer drinking, listen to me I am screaming mood..

Just once ~ do you think they would understand then?

How to Make a Beautiful Life

Love yourself.

MAKE PEACE with who you are

and where you are

at this moment in time.

Listen to your heart.

If you can't hear what it's saying

in this noisy world.

MAKE TIME for yourself.

Enjoy your own company.

Let your mind wander among the stars.

Try.

Take chances.

MAKE MISTAKES.

Life can be very messy

and horribly confusing at so many times,

but remember that is full of so many surprises.

The next step you take might

be the one you have been waiting for.

Be happy.

When you don't have what you want in front of you,

remember to want what you do have.

MAKE DO.

That is my secret to contentment.

There isn't any shortcuts to tomorrow.

You have to make YOUR OWN WAY.

To know wher eyou're going

is only part of the fun.

You need to know where you've been, too.

And if you should ever get lost along the way, don't worry.

The people who love you, including me, will find you and bring you back.

Count on it.

Life isn't days and years.

It is what you do with your time

and all the goodness and love

that is inside of you.

MAKE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE....

The kind of life you deserve.

My Blessings

I am so thankful for warm weather and clear skies.

I had a wonderful day today filled with joy, happiness and even a little bit of being scared. I still have so many blessings just for today.

Enjoy your life my sisters...we all have it good.. even though we had some bad times they are always trumped by the good ones.

My blessings are:

1) I am so blessed for water gun fights with my children and neighbors. We had a blast and I forgot how much fun they were until tonight. Thank you for reminding me.

2) I am blessed for mammograms. They don't really hurt. They are just uncomfortable. They however, made me cry and realize how wonderful my life is and how bad it could be if something is discovered.

Boy, I am so proud for all the women in the world battling breast cancer. You have become my hero's today.

3) I am so so very blessed and thankful for the sister who called to see if I was ok.

I have come to understand that the male species doesn't understand the bond woman have together. How it can be so deeply felt between sisters. I actually think they are jealous, insecure and confused.

Thank you my dear sister for thinking of me today ~ I hope you enjoyed your dinner because I was able to enjoy mine when I got home because of you.


Let us all remember to love each other. Without each other we would be lost. We need our girlfriends and our sisters. They are the rocks that keep up from falling to far.

Thank you ~ Thank you and I love you all .....

xoxoxoxo
Tracy

Life

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So, love those who treat you right, forget about the ones who dont, and remember everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance..take it, if it changes your life..let it.

Nobody said it'd be easy , they just promised it'd be worth it.♥

Happiness

Happiness shared in the form of friendships and love is happiness multiplied.

I am reminded everyday how lucky I am to have such amazing people in my life.

This quote reminds me of how happy I am, but more important how happy I really am when it is shared with others.

I have overcome so many obstacles in my life that I can only imagine what the future entails. With all the love that I am experiencing now only makes my path in life more enjoyable.

The spirit can only handle so much pain but when it experiences love and happiness it is never ending. The love that I am experiencing is replacing all that sorrow and sadness in my soul.

My soul is becoming alive again. It is learning to love again. It is learning how to laugh and cry. It is learning that life is not only sadness and madness but that it is filled with so much love and happiness.

For me, I have found the way to life.

Love is the answer for it all...