Chapter 1 ~ The Introduction??

How should I introduce myself...

Tracy, TaTa (as my little brother called me when he was a baby), mom, wife, friend, sister, aunt, daughter, shrink, gardener, dry cleaner, maid, chauffeur, and any other "namesake" that us SAHM's seem to take on...


I wonder.......and wonder some more...I keep wondering as to what the best way would be to describe me....

I am not really to sure who I am...

Am I one person today and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once?

I am that one person that lives within me.. I wish to be happy, loved, supported, blessed, healthy, and most of all grateful. I have conquered those all. Really, I just don't think I have to the fullest.

But as far as who I really really am....That person was lost long ago.. So long ago that I have decided to start my spiritual journey to find myself.

Ever wake up and just look at the walls whether they are colored or all white? Ever just look out the window and wonder what life will bring you on that day? What choices you have made or are about to make? I have.. more than once...and definitely more than twice.

Well, I have decided that I will no longer lay in that bed and just wonder. It is time for me to find out.. Find out who I am exactly, what my soul is longing for or needing. To make sure that if my life was to end tomorrow I would have no regrets.

I don't want any regrets.. I will not have any regrets.. I don't want to think that if I die tonight will I die with regret?

So I have this to say to everyone or anyone that will listen... whether I need to say it or I should have said it: "I forgive you", "I am sorry" , and most of all "I love you"........

I am me... a wonderful, loving, fun person... lets just find out WHO she really is...so I will begin searching and I am glad that you have chosen to come along for the ride. I am sure it will be boring at times, but at the same time I hope we have alot of laughs because I know there will be alot of tears!

Tracy ~ start your engine.....